Sometimes I wonder if what I’m doing is going to be worth it in the end.
I neglect my health because I’m so obsessed with doing well and it needs to be reflected by numbers. I push my family and friends away because I feel guilty if I don’t study. I fight sleep because I need to stay up that extra hour to study that last lecture.
I worry that I’m going to look back on my life and regret all those nights when I stayed in and bailed on my family, my friends, and even myself because I absolutely needed to study.
These are the things that keep me up at night.
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Biochem exam is done and out of the way.
Virology exam in about 15 hours. Desperately need coffee. Desperately need sleep.
1) Going to go through all the lecture notes and integrate them with my textbook notes.
2) Make cheat sheets in my small notebook to use as a reference/study guide.
3) Print out notes and study guide.
4) Review, review, review!
5) Ace exam.
The world around me
Turns off the lights
And tucks herself into bed.
Ready to dream the night away.
While I sit on this uncomfortable chair,
Fingers cramped from writing,
Mind exploding with information being forced in.
I want to sleep, too,
And dream of happy things.
To escape the world for just a second.
So I really wanted to go out and study at my local library but then I got worried about how hungry I would get and how much stuff I really needed to bring…so I’m just staying at home and studying there where I have unlimited food and other resources. Oh, the dilemma.
I feel like every studyblr is studying biochemistry or chemistry right meow (or at least that’s what it looks like as I’m scrolling through my dash), and it makes me happy because I’m not alone. I’m not the only one suffering. Yay!